Generosity and Grace

I’ve been learning a lot lately about allowing myself grace. I have, for a number of reasons, chosen to take this summer to slow down. I’m being more strict with myself about taking a full day off every week, and am trying to figure out, as a workaholic, how to do this “rest” thing. Similarly, as much as I hate the term “people-pleaser,” I draw way too much of my perceived self-worth from being helpful and useful. I’m learning how unhealthy these tendencies are, and I believe it all comes back to worship and love.

When asked about what the top commandment is, Jesus gave two: love God and love others. However, I think I at least have a tendency to separate them too much. The second is an outflowing of the first. When a couple is in love, they are always learning more about each other. Similarly, as we love God, we grow in our understanding of who God is; it is by knowing and trusting in who God is that we are able to act in love towards others. A part of that trusting God, though, is trusting what he says is true about us. That’s the part I struggle the most with.

God is love, and it is through learning more about Love that we know what it looks like to truly and purely love another.

I’ve heard it argued that in order to “love others as ourselves,” we must learn to love ourselves. While it is true that it is only through healthy self-respect and boundaries we can love others (Brené Brown has some great resources on this), healthy self-respect doesn’t come because I focus on myself. We are healthy when we believe what God says about us. Though I may decide that I want to work harder all the time, God says I am made to have a sabbath. I have to decide to trust what God says over my own voice. It comes down to worshiping God, not myself, and trusting that God is good.

If you, then, though you are evil, know how to give good gifts to your children, how much more will your Father in heaven give good gifts to those who ask him! So in everything, do to others what you would have them do to you, for this sums up the Law and the Prophets. (NIV, Matthew 7:11-12)

I don’t always know what is best for my life. Like a child, I have to trust that my Father knows what is best for me and will give me good gifts. I love these two verses; Jesus goes straight from saying to trust God’s goodness to the “golden rule,” the second of the two most important commandments. I’ve been struggling with trusting in the goodness of God regarding myself and my future; perhaps for others the struggle is in a different area of trust. However, I believe it is only by trusting that God is a perfect father who gives good gifts that I will ever really love those around me.

What do you think? Do you struggle to trust that God is good? How have you found your view of God to affect how you love others? I’d love to hear from you!

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4 thoughts on “Generosity and Grace

  1. Rachel, You really hit the nail on the head! I can really relate to what you said, especially about trusting God to be the good father that I know he is. It is sometimes hard to feel worthy of his love. Love, Grandma

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    1. Grandma, I agree. I’ve found it to be so easy to struggle to believe that God loves us; we feel unworthy, as though we are able to disqualify ourselves from God’s love even though God’s love is not in any way dependent on us. Thank you for sharing!

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  2. Another very insightful post! I love how you link trusting God with both worship and loving others–intertwining these three as inseparable. When I trust God, I am worshiping him; when I love my neighbor, I am worshiping my Father; and I cannot love my neighbor (at least not in the way I should) until I trust God for his provision for me. That means, then, that I cannot fully worship God, either, since worship includes trust and love of my neighbor.

    Wonderful words to begin a week with!! Love you!

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    1. Thank you! I’ve been exploring and expanding my understanding of what it means to worship God lately. I’m glad it resonates with others as well!

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